Holidays are round the corner!
And though I know that this is not the appropriate time to think about it, I think I've got a list of things I wanna do for this holiday... hmm...
1) Go out for a whole day with Dominic at least once
2) Improve and event new synthesizer techniques
3) Complete at least 40% of my Independent Study Project
4) Go jamming with the ASH
5) Sing my heart out at a KTV at least once
6) Become a super pro at o2Jam [a computer game]
7) Buy at least 5 more sets of clothes
8) Change my hairstyle and color
9) Complete my upper body training to my satisfaction
10) Do a good project for the video club
yupz. aint that difficult, come to think of it... but I might procrastinate doing 3 and 8, knowing the effort and risks involved...
oh yah! as usual, like every holiday...
I PLAN TO TAKE OVER THE WORLD!!!
mwahaha... with a hidden agenda that I won't tell of course
*grins*
Monday, February 20, 2006
Deep Thoughts
Ha... I've just watched finish Gravitation for like the 5th time...
I just love the show...
but above all the heart warming love that the show is about, a phrase that the lead guitarist, Hiro Nanake said striked a chord in me...
"Love, is not about talents, its not about whether you are the first or you are the last. Unlike what the world wants of you, love is different. Because, simply put, love isn't of the world."
Yeah, some people may ask. How on earth can there be love if there weren't any attraction in the first place?
True, like what Shuichi said, "I hope that mine (the person I will like) can be a crush, then love."
We all are attracted to each other by stuff that we like about each other. But unlike love, this brittle, volatile magnetism warrents only a period of time when we get tired of each other, or we do not have any use for the other person anymore.
Love. In essence, is unconditional - without the need for the other party to fufill requirements or criterias.
Do I love Dominic?
Yes.
The answer is yes. Be it now, be it the future, no matter how many millions of people may ask that question, it is still yes.
I love his hugs,
I love his smiles,
I love his continuous innocent talk,
I love his efforts to try and get me to reply when I'm all glum and depressed,
... but these are all nonconsequential to my love for him....
yeah, I admit that I was attracted to him because of all these stuffs, but that is not enough to make me cry when I miss him so much.
That is not enough for me to leave a space in my prayer, everday. Hoping that God will watch over him and keep him safe.
...
what am i saying. Love can't be explained in a mere number of paragraphs of thought.
I love him. And besides God, few other stuffs are more important.
- to a counselor
*sobz*
I just love the show...
but above all the heart warming love that the show is about, a phrase that the lead guitarist, Hiro Nanake said striked a chord in me...
"Love, is not about talents, its not about whether you are the first or you are the last. Unlike what the world wants of you, love is different. Because, simply put, love isn't of the world."
Yeah, some people may ask. How on earth can there be love if there weren't any attraction in the first place?
True, like what Shuichi said, "I hope that mine (the person I will like) can be a crush, then love."
We all are attracted to each other by stuff that we like about each other. But unlike love, this brittle, volatile magnetism warrents only a period of time when we get tired of each other, or we do not have any use for the other person anymore.
Love. In essence, is unconditional - without the need for the other party to fufill requirements or criterias.
Do I love Dominic?
Yes.
The answer is yes. Be it now, be it the future, no matter how many millions of people may ask that question, it is still yes.
I love his hugs,
I love his smiles,
I love his continuous innocent talk,
I love his efforts to try and get me to reply when I'm all glum and depressed,
... but these are all nonconsequential to my love for him....
yeah, I admit that I was attracted to him because of all these stuffs, but that is not enough to make me cry when I miss him so much.
That is not enough for me to leave a space in my prayer, everday. Hoping that God will watch over him and keep him safe.
...
what am i saying. Love can't be explained in a mere number of paragraphs of thought.
I love him. And besides God, few other stuffs are more important.
- to a counselor
*sobz*
Sunday, February 19, 2006
Friday, February 17, 2006
wormy the bad bad worm.
My computer is back.
hmm...
Apparantly, according to the person who fixed my computer, my system was infected with a worm.
Yes. a WOORRRMMM *makes a scary sound*
hmm... i never guessed that worms could cause harm to hardware... I always believed that viruses and worms preferred software...
but apparantly, this worm managed to infiltrate my very "secure" system and overload my motherboard, thus causing my power supply to burn out and make me very unhappy.
darn this worm.
wormmy wormmy worm..
Oh. I havn't started studying for AM yet.
I think I'm dead.
haha.
There is a person laughing madly in one of the clubs at my house downstairs... I shall immerse myself in his mirth.
bye bye!
*love ya dear*
*squigglez* =)
hmm...
Apparantly, according to the person who fixed my computer, my system was infected with a worm.
Yes. a WOORRRMMM *makes a scary sound*
hmm... i never guessed that worms could cause harm to hardware... I always believed that viruses and worms preferred software...
but apparantly, this worm managed to infiltrate my very "secure" system and overload my motherboard, thus causing my power supply to burn out and make me very unhappy.
darn this worm.
wormmy wormmy worm..
Oh. I havn't started studying for AM yet.
I think I'm dead.
haha.
There is a person laughing madly in one of the clubs at my house downstairs... I shall immerse myself in his mirth.
bye bye!
*love ya dear*
*squigglez* =)
Thursday, February 16, 2006
unbreak YOUR heart.
EOF, MPP, TREDP, CRM is down.
AM, PRMP and MLE still exists.
hmm... I must keep reminding myself not to let my guard down.....
....
I think recently, I've shown my ultra-serious side to a few people...
I've rarely ever done that before, but I think that it had to be done...
cruel as it may sound...
In our lives, people come and people go...
The few that remain are the ones that deserved more....
why lament over that which cannot be recovered?
Beneath my usual placid, dumb, materialistic self, lies an alter-ego. One that has faced years and years of scarring.
Though I may not carry the wisdom that comes with age, I do carry the experiences that follow it...
I doubt there are many of my age who has experienced the extent of the world as much as me.
Call me boastful. But I still do not believe.
Why have I placed such a "blind", "trusting" faith in God?
The answer is simple -
God is a being that embodies love.
Love transcends all.
Love never fails.
Love is.... there are too many words to describe love...
thus, no matter what, I know that should I fall, His hand is there to comfort me...
because, He is The Love, above love.
shouldn't you trust Him too?
I'm not sorry for the things I said, because it had to be said; to wake you up from the nightmare that you are in, to the comfort of a new day...
I will always be your kor. I won't break the promise...
But don't break my heart... by refusing to let yours heal...
Won't you give God back your heart?
Come to the Father,
Though your gift is small...
Broken hearts, broken lives
He will take them all...
The power of the word,
Ther power of His blood...
Everything was done,
So you would come
I emphasise "so you would come", because in every facet of our lives, God carves us and molds us into who we must be.... and there is a purpose for everything....
trust God in His Will...
A will that will never be wrong,
A will that will always be strong...
Trust me.
I wil make you recover. No matter what it will cost.
AM, PRMP and MLE still exists.
hmm... I must keep reminding myself not to let my guard down.....
....
I think recently, I've shown my ultra-serious side to a few people...
I've rarely ever done that before, but I think that it had to be done...
cruel as it may sound...
In our lives, people come and people go...
The few that remain are the ones that deserved more....
why lament over that which cannot be recovered?
Beneath my usual placid, dumb, materialistic self, lies an alter-ego. One that has faced years and years of scarring.
Though I may not carry the wisdom that comes with age, I do carry the experiences that follow it...
I doubt there are many of my age who has experienced the extent of the world as much as me.
Call me boastful. But I still do not believe.
Why have I placed such a "blind", "trusting" faith in God?
The answer is simple -
God is a being that embodies love.
Love transcends all.
Love never fails.
Love is.... there are too many words to describe love...
thus, no matter what, I know that should I fall, His hand is there to comfort me...
because, He is The Love, above love.
shouldn't you trust Him too?
I'm not sorry for the things I said, because it had to be said; to wake you up from the nightmare that you are in, to the comfort of a new day...
I will always be your kor. I won't break the promise...
But don't break my heart... by refusing to let yours heal...
Won't you give God back your heart?
Come to the Father,
Though your gift is small...
Broken hearts, broken lives
He will take them all...
The power of the word,
Ther power of His blood...
Everything was done,
So you would come
I emphasise "so you would come", because in every facet of our lives, God carves us and molds us into who we must be.... and there is a purpose for everything....
trust God in His Will...
A will that will never be wrong,
A will that will always be strong...
Trust me.
I wil make you recover. No matter what it will cost.
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